Tonight is very significant in that it will be the first night that I have slept without my daughter, Eliana! She is staying in Port Angeles with her Daddy tonight. My heart kind of hurts, but I am trying to take advantage of the alone time. I think it’s pretty impressive that this situation hasn’t come up until now. I’ve made a point to not be separated from her, though, all of her life. I figured now would be a good time to try rather than the night I stay in the hospital. I don’t want her to think the baby is taking me away from her and it’ll give her and Daddy a chance to figure out what works for them without the excitement of a new baby involved. It will be odd sleeping in our king size bed all alone. I’m up every 2 or 3 hours to use the bathroom so I don’t think I’ll get any more sleep than I have been lately, but we’ll see! I’m also taking advantage of the night alone to write a blog post. It’s only been 3 months since you heard from me last! A ton has happened over the last few months. Most of them good, a lot of them stressful, but things are coming together, even if they aren’t exactly the way I had hoped.
I am also 38 weeks pregnant today. My body has been preparing for child birth for at least a couple of months now, so I am impressed I have made it this long! My due date is October 19th. We’ll see if she decides to wait that long. She’s sitting so low now that I have that constant feeling of needing to use the bathroom. Every time I stand up I have to make a dash to the bathroom before I do anything else, so I tend to avoid standing up much at work. I scheduled my last day of work for October 14th and I don’t know if I’m more anxious about not thinking about work for awhile or meeting our newest baby girl! Haha… It IS true what they say, though - The body remembers. I wasn’t this uncomfortable with Eliana until I actually went into labor. I have a feeling once I do finally go into labor, this baby is going to fly right out. I’m a little nervous about the whole dynamics of going into labor without a ride to the hospital, in the case that my husband is away somewhere (like he is tonight) and the fact that I don’t really have a backup plan right now. I have a feeling I’ll be driving myself to the hospital! Stay tuned for that story….!
The last few months Eliana turned 3, we persevered and were able to buy a little one bedroom house in Port Angeles, we still don’t have our house listed, my husband graduated the Police Academy and started his field training, I analyzed my stress load and got my priorities straight, our youngest adult child, Jenna, started college in Port Angeles, and my baby girl just keeps growing and growing – just to name a few things. It’s been a full 3 months for sure. So full, I haven’t even packed my hospital bag yet! I’ve made a list, though!
It’s nearly 9:30pm, so I better call my little girl and wish her a good night. I hope she sleeps well with Daddy tonight. I’m going to miss them both terribly, but I will be in Port Angeles with them tomorrow!