November 5th I started The Chopra Center’s 21 Day Meditation Challenge. My initial goal for starting this challenge was to quiet my mind so that I could fall asleep faster and hopefully minimize bad dreams and wake up feeling rested. This is day 11 – I have missed a couple of days, so I am on Day 9 in the challenge and the results I have felt have been astonishing.
The best I can describe it is as if I am reprogramming my mind and getting back in touch with who I really am. My core. The me under all of the layers of life’s stresses, insecurities, worries, and inhibitions. I really don’t know how it has worked so overwhelmingly well. The abundance I have focused on centers around love and wealth.
I was first formerly introduced to the Laws of Attraction through the book The Secret. Reading this book seemed like a welcome reminder that what I spend my time focusing on – including worrying – is what will be attracted into my life. I immediately began paying attention to my thoughts and focusing on how I want things to be and the positive in my life. I quickly started seeing positive changes in my life, but the stresses I carried were still there. I felt like I needed to sort through each of these, address them, resolve them – which is exhausting! – and move on. The meditation challenge has shown me this isn’t the case.
Since beginning my meditation challenge I have reconnected with great friends from my past that I have lost touch with over the years. Some of these connections I created intentionally and others seemed to cross my path out of no where. One particular person I connected with, I haven’t talked to in 15 years! This all seemed very odd to me that I felt the need to talk and connect with them, but it is all clear now. They knew me when I was me, before the mess of things I’ve piled on myself the last few years existed. Their impression and memories of me helped me find confidence in who I am again. And I am quite fabulous.
This past weekend, my husband and I had more than half our kids and our grandbaby girl here in our tiny little house. Although there were 5 adults, a 4 year-old and 2 babies, I don’t think any of us felt crowded. Having everyone here in my energy circle caused my heart to overflow with love and solidified my path of healing. Mix this with the “remembrance” of who I am by connecting with old friends and I found the Me within bursting through the layers I’ve piled over myself. Before I was trying to sift through the pile of mess to find me, instead I have burst through the shell, much like a baby bird cracking it’s shell at birth. I feel like I have shed the layers and my core is so strong it’ll take great effort for them to build again. Effort I do not plan to give my energy to. I feel invigorated and so alive. Remembering who I am, reminded me of why I am so madly in love with my husband and it’s as if I’ve fallen for him all over again. I am grateful, happy, and so excited about all of the moving pieces in my life. I feel like my playful self again. I am blasting my music and spontaneously breaking into dance with my family again. I am walking lightly and able to not take life and myself so seriously, trusting that everything will work out and fall into place – why? Because “I expect and accept abundance to flow easily to me.”
I am only halfway through this challenge. I am eager to see what comes next!